and from my lips he drew a Hallelujah

Hello Friends,

Well, last night seemed to be a very trying and emotional night for me. In these past two weeks I have been building up a barrier in order to be strong for my grandmother. She has always been my rock and I have yet to shed a tear in front of her because I didn't want to upset her and I needed to be strong for her like she has always been for me.Last night after getting home from working all day, poor Kyle came home to a babbling mess. My emotions ran wild with coping with the relief of Mimi being okay and our upcoming engagement shoot tomorrow. So what is the issue you ask? I am so worried about paying all this money for pictures and not liking them or other people making rude comments about them. I know they will be beautiful but with this wedding my insecurities have been taking lead. So while I cried Kyle (god bless him) held me and told me to just let it out and once I finished crying he told me that he loves me just the way I am and no matter what anyone says, the ones that love me most are the ones that matter and that anyone who knows me knows I am beautiful inside and out. I cant tell you how lucky I am to have such an incredible man by my side in times when I loose my mind. So after being restless this morning I woke up to a cold gray morning and as heading to my grandmothers I heard the infamous words. As driving I heard a song that has always seen to get me thorough. Hallelujah by Kate Voegele. Just then as the words streamed over my radio and the gray cold sky cleared to a cool blue and the sun began to shine through. All I could do was just smile. In those moments where that song played a calm came over me and I finally felt like everything was going to be fine. I am struggling with so much these past few months from dealing with moving, my grandmothers diagnoses and surgery, weight and the fact that my great grandmothers are not around to be able to see me on my wedding day. I cant say that the struggles will go away because it wouldn't be life, but I can say that I know with time each struggle I face I will learn to deal with better and they will get easier.


Below I have put the link to the video for Hallelujah, and other songs that have seen to get me through my days.By posting them I am hoping that maybe they can do the same for someone else.

http://youtu.be/k29JxVCKBBM
--Kate Voegele; Hallelujah

http://youtu.be/BzE1mX4Px0I
--Selena Gomez: Who Says

http://youtu.be/ul-pLYo5MJ8
-- Glee; We are young

http://youtu.be/QOpuK5hYPAY
-- Matthew Morrison; Fix You

http://youtu.be/EeTPi2a2Ld4
-- Chris Brown and Big Sean; My last

http://youtu.be/-G_j3JqML5M
-- Martina McBride- A little bit stronger

until next time friends :)